So watch the screen...

to tumblr.
idk i might come back once in a while but i have no idea why i like tumblr better.

My mom and My friends.
actualy, i would kill myself.
i couldnt live without them.

its was awesome!
but andrew got wayyy more sexual since the last time i saw him.
and Elans guitar died in the middle of 'Alive For The First Time'
still amazing.
while i was in line, andrew was walking by and i was talking to my friend, Lisa, and i said to her "why is he so short?!"
i guess i said it loud and he heard.
he looked back at me with the 'FFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUU-" face.
after the show which ended at 9 or 9:30 we went to hang with them, but i stuck around andrew most of the time.
Sharon was nowhere within the area and i was like wtf?
Andrew and I played 'tap tap revenge 2' for Itouch.
the song 'heregoesnothin' by NeverShoutNever was the one we played.
he said he wasnt good at it but we played anyways...and he ended up winning.
Then we were talking about when they went on tour with Envy On The Coast and The Audition.
He squealed when he heard Adam Lazzara was gonna be there.
I was loling that whole night.

Gaskarth/MLeone pariing still.

this is at warped tour
Matthew is angry at how All Time Low isnt real music. how they get everything and theyre still horrible. so he happens to run into Alex, just acting all cocky, which just sends matthew over the edge. later that night when its just alex packing up stop stuff he steals him and takes him to some concealed place and like smacks him around. then throws insults at him like hell. then rapes him but alex likes it, and doesnt want to tell him. so alex says something like "no dont hit me." and matthew hits him. so at the end alex is bleeding and has bite mark on his neck and shoulders. matthew finishes then leaves him there. and alex just sits there wanting him to do it again

i got that all from one lyric from a Nine Inch Nails song
'i need your disipline'


i'll attempt to write it but im not that good of a writer.

because i had a dream about matthew screwing alex doggy-style and then alex started riding him
It was really freaking wierd.

but now i wanna read a story with them like that


im a fucking freak xD




 

my grandmother died yesterday, Febuary 15th 2009.
she was my favorite person in the whole world...she was always there for me and always protected me.
the day she died my mom went go to see her and i wanted to go...but i coudnt...
i had to wait for the repair dude.

im still in shock and i cant believe that it happened...

i have an empty feeling now...
i thinks its gonna be there forever



R.I.P Phillys Siracusano

It involved Me, Sharon, Tina, and Andrew DeTorres O_O
Apparently we were all friends and we were hanging out at my house for a while then we decided to go to a food court type place and I think Tina went somewhere so it was just me on one side of the table ,Andrew and Sharon on the other. I really don't know what they were talking about but Andrew turned to Sharon and like pulls her closer. Then she faced him and Andrew wrapped his arms around her and their faces got so close to like not touching. Andrew was smiling at her and saying something quietly to her, and she said something back. Basicly they were loving on each other the whole time. It was so fucking cute.  It was like they were so in love. Then we walked back to my place and while we did ,Andrew kissed Sharons cheek  and she freakin lit up. When we were at the house, Tina and Andrew were sitting on the bed, and Sharon was at the computer with me. Tina like leaned over to Andrew and whispered "touch me" in his ear. He nodded and got up. "Guys, can you like leave for a couple of minutes?" Tina smirked. So me and Sharon left, they closed the door and i THINK some foreplay started happening. But for some reason Sharon did not mind.  I think cause there was like a robot in the living room O_O


and then i like woke up

FUCKING CLIFFGHANGER.

i hope the dream continues

ANDREWS A PIMP AND HE KEEPS HIS PIMP HAND STRONG AND HIS BITCHES IN LINE.

So Lisa, Sharon and I went to go see Madina Lake in Lancaster a few days ago. Sharon picked me up at like 8am and we started driving with her mom, 2 guys which i will asume are her uncles and Lisa. I so excited for this because i havent seen them since warped tour last year [when i gave mateo my little note] and they changed since then, in appearence...or so i thought. I brought my thing to connect the ipod to the car and its kept stopping every other second, so we sang the parts that got cut out, and when we were on beat we felt so accomplished. i didnt really take us 3 hours to get there. maybe like and hour and a half. and when we did get there, we thought there would be a lot of people on line since it was like 11 or 12 but there were only like 5 people on line! OH and i forgot to mention the show was sold out and we had no tickets O_O i was way worried that we wouldnt be able to get in, but the guitarist of So Good Safari [opening band] sold Sharon and Lexii tickets. SO FUCKING HAPPY or as Sharon and Lisa know I WAS OD GASSED :D we got in and we had to wait another hour in order to get to the actual stage. i started fucking around with my camera and i took a picture of sharon where it looks like she has a huge nose and i was like "LOL MATEO" so we all died for a moment. the doors to the stage opened and we made a mad dash to the stage. but i got stopped because they had to check my bag...apparently i look susicious. so i made 3rd row and Sharon was in front of me, and Lisa was next to me. So Good Safari was pretty good. Between The Tree's made me laugh cause people kept shouting things and this boy in the nosebleed was like "YUR SEW SEXY!!!" while they were playing. when the song was over the lead singer was like "who said that?" and the dude raised his hand. "everyone give it up for that dude" the singer said. so everyone clapped.  then the singer said to the dude "it's gone now."  and i knew what he ment xD so the set went on and after every song in dead silence people kept going "WOO!" and i didnt mean to be really loud but i said "it's like a freaking woogasm in here" and my friends startng LOLing. Madina Lake was on next and i was SO hype. Matthew came on stage to tune his bass and Mateo did the same for his guitar [i almost died] and Dan was setting up his kit [lisa almost died]. after that they all left the stage and maybe ten minutes later the lights dimmed and the song "Swagger Like Us" by T.I started playing. I laughed so hard cause i couldnt imagine them putting that as their intro song. Dan came out first and went behind the drums, then started dancing. I dont think many people noticed. then one by one they jumped out and of course Nathan was last. The set was fucking amazing.
they opened with their new song "Never Walk Alone" and i was like D: no Adalia? but they played that next. I went so insane! I kept hitting sharon in the head and i felt bad x[ but everytime Sharon jumped up, i was jumping down. my head was on top of hers. i think you get what i'm saying. i bit through my cheek and both sides of my tounge, ouchie. Later on in the set they played a new song called "Never Take Us Alive" and it's one of those songs that you instantly love. Sharon recorded it and its the only video of that song on youtube. I noticied after every song Nathan looked soooo happy and it was so adorable. so getting to the end their last song was "True Love" and my feet did not touch the ground that whole song. Nathan climbed up on the side of the stage and dived of the amps i think. it was awesome. i think this is the first time i didnt get hit in the head with a part of his body. After it was done we all got out and went to the merch booth to talk to Mark, or as Mateo says, Jeezy. Lisa and Sharon admired Anberlin from the back. Back during warped, Mark hustled me and i never forgave him for that. But he's so sweet and cool. I totally forgot about him ripping me off. A little bit later Dan appeared and we hung out with him for a while. I made Mixcd's for them so i gave Dan his and his playlist was called "Treasure Hunting Music" He was like "THAT'Z WAZZUP!!" and hugged me. everyone should have a friend like Dan. He's just so chill and easy to hang around. he really wouldnt care if you acted like a dork. His parents came. i was so confused because like everyone was Blonde O_O after dan left we went back to the merch booth to talk to Mark. Sharon asked to take a picture with him. they were posing and then they started talking so i took candid pictures ^_^ it was funny. POOF Mateo appears out of nowhere and i shake the shit out of lisa. but the sad thing is i didnt really talk to him. i gave him his CD and basicly just stood in the sidelines while Sharon and Lexii talk to him. He kept looking my was and smiling so i started blushing and smiling uncontrolably. Sharon and Him bring the lolz tbqh because everytime they talk something funny always happens. Anberlins set is way past ending and the merch booths are stuffed! Sharon, Lisa, Lexii, and I decide to leave and go to the van to wait for thee twins. we walk around the block, trying not to slip because the floor is like an ice skating rink. we get to the van and stay on the side until we see a blonde poofball [he grew his hair back out, thank jesus]. I'm dancing like Micheal Jackson and Lexii and Sharon are just sliding. then someone says "look who we found" and whatdoyaknow? its NATHAAAN. We hang around him for a half an hour slipping on ice and laughing. i started recording us chilling with him at the end of the chilling. of course i have him his CD and he read the warning for one of the songs. "warning, so not blast Track 10 or you will scare the shit out of yourself. AWESOME now i'm gonna blast track ten while i go to sleep." he said and we laughed. I was like o.o because that track is "The Sadness Will Never End" by bring me the horizon and the guitar really comes out of nowhere. Sharon bought the guys a gift bag with all the shit they need. She was begging Nathan to round up all the guys which is insanely hard to do. Matthew finally come along and we all [including Nathan] shift towards him.  and whoa he had a Canadian hat on. Nathan snuck of while we werent looking, to the van and when i glanced back Mateo was there. i shook lisa once again and asked her to come with me but she refused. I gave Matthew his Cd and he liked the name of it [Chillax'n Music/Great Bass] after i gave it to him i was telling myself to go over to Mateo and ask him if he remembered me but i had HxC butterflies moshing in my stomach and i couldnt bring myself to ask him. by the time i gatherd up enough courage he was gone. Dan popped out of nowhere and Sharonwas getting flustered. so she asked Dan and Matthew if we could go to the van to give them it and he was like suuuuuure. so we went over and they opened the door and sat on the edges. i was surprised that the van was clean!....ish! I recorded them openining it and the first thing they pick out is Fabreeze. Nathan grabbed it and sprayed it on himself. he said something while he was doing it but i cannot remember at this moment. they were happy with the gift but they really had to go so we hugged one last time, took a group picture with dan and they retreated to the van. Lexii decided to part ways so we hugged her. I was waiting for a hug then i realized we were in front of the van. so i slinked away and tried to tell Sharon and Lexii that they were about to get run over. but they didnt notice. I got a hug from lexii then we went back to our van and started driving back to NY. On the way there we saw an accedent with something that looked like Madina's van and trailer. we got so worried because they have to drive this way in order to get to Rhode Island. we got closer and saw it wasnt them. But we were seriously scared because Sharon and Lisa's band teacher had a dream that Matthew died and they werent even sad that he died, just yelling for a replacement bassist. so sharon was like "the first thing i'd do is get out and see if matthew's alright."


January 10th 2009 is something i wont forget. it almost was the best day of my life so far but Watped beat it.

with friends like mine and a day like this...life couldnt get any better.

Unidentified Flashing Lights.



i looked outside my window yesterday and say a gray/white stripe in the sky and i was like "wtf mate?"
then there was this circular light flashing next to it, like dull-ly
then i was like "MA, THERES ALIENS COMING FOR GLENDAAAAALE!" and shes like "PSH, NOOOOO." she looked out of the window and then she said "its probably just spotlights from manhattan" then i said "k, lets go wait that optimistic answer"


if your asking DO YEW BELIEVE IN ALIENZZZ? then my answer is slightly confused.


i dont know what to believe anymore.



sorry for pissing you off E.T...i'll send you a gift basket.

today when i was waiting for the Q55  sometime between 5 and 6, I looked up and there it was.
a Cresent Moon. I't wasnt completely dark yet. the sky was a shade of Greenish Blue. and there we're clouds.
a couple of seconds later a really really bright star becomes visable.


i cant fully explain how beautiful it was. you had to be there.
I was amazed that no one else noticed. its a shame.

they are friends in someway, i know it
both their fucking mystery's they've created has something to do with 'folie a deux' [a madness shared by two]

Pete's Connection:

this clue he left ,us, the FOBR boardies on his blog.
apparently him and Travis McCoy share a madness...and obsession

Matthew's connection:
as everyone knows, he creates the chapters to the story and who deal about Adalia.
what im guessing  is gonna happen by the direction hes going in is that Adalia is a figment of everyones imagination.
she's someone everyone wanted to believe is real and since they all wanted to believe she was real...she became real to them.
they became obsessed with the thought of her and it got way out of hand. it was a madness they all shared.


i could be wrong with the Adalia thing cause its not clear where the fuck/what the fuck/ or who the fuck she is.
but yeah this is getting to my head

have you been hanging out with Madina Lake and Stephen King lately?!
cause this is bullcrap son!
fucking sharon dragged me into this crap and now i can't sleep
i swear to fucking god if this shit is all about Obama, i will personaly find Pete and turn him into Petra :|
im supposed to be seeing fucking Steven Smith in 5 hours i dont need this crap right now



Pete....stop trying to be Matthew Leone!!!!
it's not workin out son.

Before Dan could even makeup any excuse to what just happened, Mateo yelled as quietly as possible "What the fuck was that dude?!"

----

Mateo
 "What the fuck was that dude?!"
My head can't even process what the fuck just happened.
One fucking minute ago we were fighting and the next thing i know, i'm pinned against the wall, playing tonsil hockey with Dan, while his hand was down my pants. Although i have to admit i enjoyed it...Wait...I'm straight...God damnit, Mateo, Your straight.

-----

Dan
 I didn't want to answer him...
actualy, i could'nt answer him. Its like everything  is just a big fuzzy ball of blah...like Nathan's hair when he wakes up.
I didnt notice i said something until Mateo's face went from repulsive to complete shock.
"You tell me!" I said, just as loud as he did.
"Your the one that fucking pounced on me like a spider monkey!" He said a little louder.
"Well...you didnt tell me to stop." I managed to stutter out.
"Why did you do it in the first place!" He flailed his arms a little.
Damn, he just had to ask that question, right? Then I remembered what we were doing before.
"I did it to shut you up!" 

-----

Mateo 
There were better alternatives to shutting me up, opposed to picking the more sexual route!
He could've just apologized for punching me. although, I did start this whole situation.
Fuck that, I am not surrendering to my defeat yet!
"You know, there are other ways to shut me up like a normal person." 
"But i'm not normal" He smiled innocently.
Now, even if your fucking straighter than Chuck Norris, you cannot help but go a little gay for that smile.
But the thing is, only he can do it. when Matthew does it, its just very creepy.
I just had to give in.
I sighed. "This is very true."

-----

Dan was proud of himself. Mateo fell for his innocent face all the time.
Just then, Nathan came bouncing, yes, bouncing into the room.
"Whacha guys doing?" He asked childishly.
Mateo opened his mouth to say something, but Dan beat him to it.
"Nothing, I was just about to come out to you guys." Dan said.
Nobody noticed that Matthew had poked his head into the room, so everyone jumped at the sound of his loud voice.
"guys! Jesse is calling out Mateo for a dance-off!" 
Everyone looked at Mateo.
Nathan's jaw dropped slightly. "Oh god, I gotta see this!"
"Ch'yeah!" Dan said excitedly
Mateo looked determined. "Get ready to gey owned Jesseboy" he smirked.
He walked out of the room and everyone followed, jumping and betting money.
Dan stayed behind everyone and said to himself. "just another excuse to watch him."

[comments please...im not sure if this was good or not]

on August 12th, 2008 i saw a Rainbow.
yes, a FULL rainbow....well actualy 2
and the best part about this was i was with my best friends.
the best friends i wanna spend the rest of my life with
Tina, Sharon, and Lisa
we were hanging out in Dunkin Donuts, talking about what we wanted to do together before we died.
like taking any train and getting off at the last stop...and attempt to find our way back.
it started raining and we thought about going outside and dancing in the rain.
then it stopped about 10 minutes later.
one of us pointed out the rainbow.
we ran outside and stared at it for a long time.
this random lady came up to us and said 'this is the first time ive ever seen a full rainbow' and then left
i think its safeto say that we all thanked god we are alive in this moment in time.



and that moment i swore we were infinite.
 

Fall Out Boy:



"i read about the afterlife when i never really lived"
-Saturday

"my smiles an open wound without you, and my hands are tied to pages inked to bring you back"
-Homesick at Spacecamp

"fake it like you matter is a lie we can both keep"
-Sending Postcards From A Plane Crash (Wish You Were Here)

"take this to your grave, and i'll take it to mine"
-The Patron Saint Of Liars and Fakes

"Poets are just kids who didnt make it, and never had it at all:"
-Ive Got A Dark Ally And A Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth (Summer Song)

"im having another episode, i just need a stronger dose"
-7 Minutes In Heaven (Ataven Halen)

"the best part of Believe is the Lie"
-Sophmore Slump Or Comeback of The Year

"i swear i'd burn this city down to show you the light"
-Sophmore Slump Or Comeback of The Year

"im the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends"
-I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me

"progress report: i am missing you to death"
-I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me

"someone old, no one new. feeling borrowed, always blue. someone old, someone new. always borrowed...always you"
-I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me

"I'm casually obsessed and I've forgiven death, I am indifferent, yet (I am a total wreck)"
-Music Or The Misery

"you wouldnt know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat"
-My Heart Is The Worst Kind Of Weapon

"this is me wishing you into the worst situations"
-My Heart Is The Worst Kind Of Weapon

Madina Lake:

"she cries cause shes lost, and she doesnt even know what she wants. her eyes grow cold as she begs the world to just let her go"
-Adalia

"take my hand, lets get famous"
-Stars

"one day we'll have it all, you and me...we're gonna be stars"
-Stars

"fateless, tortured...you've lost your mind"
-Riverpeople

"you were desperate and pathetic, but just as beautiful to me"
-True Love

My Chemical Romance:

"the amount of pills ive taken, counteracts the booze ive dranken, and this vanity im breaking lets me live my life like this"
-Honey, This Mirror Isnt Big Enough For The Two Of Us

"the beauty that im faking"
-Honey, This Mirror Isnt Big Enough For The Two Of Us

"this riddle of revenge"
-Our Lady Of Sorrows

"they make me do push-ups in drag"
-You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison

"just you and i, your starless eyes remain"
-Its Not A Fashion Statement...Its A Deathwish

"clean me off, im so dirty babe"
-I Never Told You What I Do For a Living

"never again, and never again. they gave us two shots to the back of the head...and we're all dead now"
-I Never Told You What I Do For A Living

Taking Back Sunday:

"you know i can take the place of those pills, ocean blue, paint em white...now who ya' gonna call tonight?"
-Set Phasers To Stun

"i will never make another promise without you"
-Set Phasers To Stun

"hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens ,a thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins I will never ask if you don't ever tell me...I know you well enough to know you'll never love me"
-Cute Without An 'E'

"open arms reject asuming hands"
-Spin

Panic! At The Disco:

"you're a regular decorated emergency"
-Camisado

"the bruises and contusions will remind me what you did when you wake"
-Camisado

"gimmie envy, gimmie malice, gimme your attention"
-Time To Dance

"shes not bleeding on the ballroom floor, just for the attention...cause thats just rediculously off"
-Time To Dance

"lets get these teen hearts beating, faster ,faster"
-Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off

"the smokes in the ciggerette boxm on the table, they just so happened to be lace with nitoglycerin (so dont smoke)"
-Theres A Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey, You Just Havent Thought of It Yet

"what a wonderful caricature of intimacy"
-Build God, Then We'll Talk


The Used:

"found a box full of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing"
-Box Full Of Sharp Objects

"and you never wouldve thought in the end, how amazing it feels just to live again"
-Blue and Yellow

"to me it looks so pretty burning"
-Take It Away

"i know im not in love, you know its not love"
-Take It Away

"this feeling never leaves you alone, you pull the trigget on your own"
-Hospital


 

i cant think of anything.
every great thought dissapeared from my head.
everything.
i live in a place where inspiration is non-existant
all there is , is posers.
true inspiration, mimiciked.
nothing is original.
everyone stealing everyones ideas.
mind theives.
they stole all mine.
my original ideas and claim it as their own.

this isnt a place for someone like me.
this is hell

....
its true...romance is dead they shot it in the chest than in the head.

[this was an LA project xD...i just felt like posting stuff.
comment if you'd like.]



Autumn was your normal teenager. she smiled, laughed, had friends, and had a mother that was cooler than the others. But on the inside…she was not. She had pain that she would never let go. She was always the most made fun of, she was always the dumbest, she was the definition of imperfection. Her best friend, Zachery was the only one who knew everything. How she felt, when she was faking her happiness. Even though Zachery was her best friend, she liked him way more than best friends should. He didn’t know, he’ll never know. She was sitting on her bed, earphones blaring, pen in hand, drawing. “I just need something that will take me away, to get away from you…to escape from here” she sang quietly, concentrating on her drawing. “what are you listening to?” Zachery said, sitting on the floor of her room, reading a music magazine. “a song” she said blankly. He looked up at her. “yes captain obvious, but what song” he said. “escape from here” she replied. “oh, I think I like that song.” he said, thinking about it. She giggled and looked up “well you should, its awesome” she said, finishing up her drawing. Zachery shrugged and went back to reading. “okay I’m done. Now I want to go to sleep” she said taking off her earphones and turning off her ipod. “do you mind if I crash here?” Zachery asked, shutting the magazine. “sure…if your okay with sleeping with my cat” she said smiling. “oh that thing..” he said, pointing at the cat. “as long as it doesn’t do anything to my leg, I’m alright with it.” “its not a dog, y’know” she laughed. After a debate about how it doesn’t matter if it’s a dog or cat, they fell asleep…well Zachery did. Autumn looked at Zachery sleeping, she smiled to herself. She took her drawing back out and added something to it. ‘im begging you to be my escape.’ she then fell asleep.

The next day, Autumn woke up. Her eyes fluttered open and she rubbed them. She then looked at her surroundings. She was not in her house anymore. She got up and looked around more. She was in a field, and a beautiful one at that, with beautiful green grass and beautiful flowers. She looked down at what she was wearing. It was a white halter dress. This was like something out of a dream. She heard a sound from behind her and looked. It was Zachery standing up looking around. “since when was you room a field with flowers?” he questioned. “since never” she replied looking with him. “okay, I have come to a conclusion that this is creepy” said looking kind of worried. She looked at what he was wearing a short-sleeve white button up shirt with a black tie, and black jeans. He looked at her “you look pretty” he said, pointing at her dress. “thanks” she replied, blushing a little “your not so bad yourself” she said. He smiled “thanks.” there was a silence where they were both looking at each other. Autumn broke the silence “uh so do you want to explore and find out where we are?” she asked. “for sure” he replied. “okay” she smiled and jumped on his back. “you have to carry me though.” he smiled too. “alright fine, your lucky your lighter than air” he said, running towards another areathey came across a lake. Autumn jumped of Zachery’s back. He then laid on the floor, panting. “correction, you are not lighter than air” he said breathlessly. She laughed and hit him playfully. She sat on the floor, looking out at the lake and the trees behind it. Suddenly she felt Zachery’s arm around her shoulder, it sent chills up her spine. She looked at him and he was looking at the scenery. She smiled to herself and looked back at it. “how do you think we wound up here?” she looked back at him and he was still staring. “I don’t know, maybe this is all a dream…I mean seriously, I would never in my life wear a dress, and a white one at that” she said “maybe your right.” he replied. He looked at her “hey I’m ready explore more!” he jumped up. “now zacky? “ she asked, looking up at him. “yes, now get up and hop on” he said turning around. She got up and jumped on his back again. They headed in another direction now.

 

it was getting close to night. They lost track of time because they were chasing each other and getting into playful fights. They ran towards a wooded area, but stopped before they entered it. “do you think its safe” Autumn asked looking the trees up and down. “probably not, but lets just go in it for the sake of this once in an infinity chance” Zachery said, looking over at her. She looked at him, and thought about it for a moment. “fine, but you go in first so the freaks and river people can get you first” she giggled. “okay okay” he entered the forest, Autumn followed. Since the sun was going down it was slightly scary. She heard a noise and grabbed on to Zachery’s arm. “what was that?!” he said quietly. “lions…tigers…river people” he smirked. “you’re a jerk” she said, jokingly. “here, hold my hand” he said, extending an arm towards her. She grabbed his hand and they continued to walk. She liked the feeling of holding his hand, it made her feel safe, and put her at ease. After jumping over logs, swatting away bugs, and tripping over rocks they finally got to a part of the forest where it felt safe enough to hang out in. Autumn sat on a big rock and Zachery sat on the floor next to her. “so how long do you think we’ll be here?” She asked. “uh…maybe if we fall asleep again, we’ll wake up in your house” he suggested. “lets hope that your right” she replied. They talked until the sun was completely gone and the only source of light was from the moon and the stars. “hey, you want to dance?” Zachery asked, out of nowhere. It took Autumn by surprise. “uh…uhm, sure?” she questioned. Zachery pulled her up. He held her hand with one of his, and placed the other on her waist. So they started to ballroom dance. “dude, this is awkwardly weird” Autumn laughed. “so am I” he replied. “its hard to dance with no music, you know that right?” she said, still giggling a little. “pretend your listening to ‘The Auspice’ or ‘Sally’s Song’” he said. “okay.” she closed her eyes and started the songs in her mind. She can imagine the violins and instruments in her mind. She opened her eyes back up, and Zachery was centimeters apart from her face. “is this about to happen? Its everything I wished for going to come true?” she asked herself in her head. She leaned in closer to him and their lips pressed together. She closed her eyes again. He kissed her deeply and lovingly. She kissed back the same way, wrapping her arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around her waist. After a minute or two they pulled away from each other. “wow, this is like something out of a fairytale.” she said quietly, looking into his eyes. He looked to his side and pointed. She looked over and saw fireflies, lots and lots of fireflies scattered across the wooded area. She looked up in amazement. Zachery went behind her, wrapped his arms around her waist again and placed his chin on her shoulder, looking up with her. “now, it’s a fairytale” he said quietly. She looked at him again. He was looking back. They kissed again, with the stars, moon, and fireflies lighting up the moment. “I will wait for this moment, when our lips collide…almost stop the earth…your in my arms tonight” he whispered to her.

It was then she realized that this was sincere happiness. She hasn’t been this happy in the longest time ever. She felt every insult thrown at her fade away, every troubled moment was forgotten. She was finally happy again. Autumn didn’t care if she was stuck here forever or not. This was her dream, her paradise…this was what made her happy again.

 

 

[....
i really know this is gonna suck really badly.
i havent wrote slash in god knows how long :[ ]

POV- 3rd person [Dan centered]/Mateo/Dan 
Location: Venue in NY [maybe....just use your imagination xD]
Summary: Dan likes Mateo buuuut Mateo doesnt know it so Dan tries to make his crush on him not obvious. it works in the beginning but fails.
--------

"dude i am so computer retarded"  Dan said while trying to figure out how AIM works.
"wow, both you and nathan" Mateo replied, sitting across from him, playing his guitar quietly.
"what about matthew...hes computer retarded too" he said frowning a little.
".....eh, he can work e-mails and shit so not really"
a few minutes later nathan walked in. "What'd i miss?"
"the freaking computer...its GHEY!" Dan exclaimed while still having trouble with aim.
"same. i can not figure that out" Nathan replied, walking over to dan and lurking at when he was doing.
"No its not the computer thats ghey...its you two that are Ghey" Mateo said, shaking his head.
Dan looked at him, with the 'What The Fuck' face in full force.
"shut the face camargo" Dan said blankly
Mateo stuck his tounge out at him.
Nathan was laughing.
"...so you laugh at yourself getting dissed....smooth move" Dan said to Nathan.
Nathan shrugged.
"and this whole situation proves that pirates, indeed do suck" Mateo said putting his guitar down beside him.
Nathan and Dan looked surprised. 
"Wait im a ninja." Nathan said looking confused.
"Yeah, but your one shitty Ninja...Might as well be a pirate" Mateo said.
Dan stared at him, shocked.
"He did not just go there" Dan said still shocked.
"Ooooooh yeah he did" Nathan said noding.
Mateo folded his arms smiling devilishly.
"Pshh, at least pirates freaking get out once in a while, instead of sitting down all day at the computer like a 40 year old pedophile" he said back folding his arms too.
Mateos jaw dropped.
"hoshit im out" Nathan said backing out of the room quickly.
"I so do not sit at the fucking computer all day!" Mateo snapped back, while standing up.
"DUDE that is such a lie you so do!" Dan said back standing up too.
"Pirates were always known to lie" 
"I DO NOT LIE" Dan said stepping up to him.
'Theres a lie right there!" He said pointing at him.
Dan was in total shock "What The Fuckkk?!!!? No that was not!"
"LIESSS!" Mateo said back.
"you fucking aisan" he said quietly.
"I am no---" Mateo ceased to finish because he saw Matthew and Nathan watching from the doorway to the dressing room with popcorn.
Dan looked over at them too and looked confused slightly.
"...Its amusing to watch you two fight" Matthew said.
"Where there fuck did you get popcorn?" Mateo said.
Matthew and Nathan looked at each other.
"We have no fucking clue" they said simulaniously.
just then a dude from the Venue said they were going on in 5 minutes.
the Twins scattered out of the doorway.
Dan and Mateo glared at each other one last time before following the twins.

---------------------

after their set the twins went and talked with the opening bands while aiden was playing.
Dan and Mateo were back where they started.
"dude What the Fuck at you throwing a drumstick at my head?! i should have been a bitch and threw it back at you instead of the crowd!" Mateo said panting a little.
"why didnt you use your " super cat like reflexes" that ive heard so much about ninja?" Dan said using hand quotes than folding his arms.
Mateo growled slightly. "I should have fucking pushed you off stage" 
"and if you did push me off stage you wouldnt be stable right now" 
Mateo glanced at him and laughed. "dude...you? hurt me?....i laugh at that little crazy thought you have floating around in your head"
Dan noded "okay." and after he said that he punched mateo in the face. "so that didnt hurt?" he said. 
he couldnt believe what he just did...he didnt mean too. he knew he was so going to pay for that.
Mateo was now in total shock , he places his hand on the side of his face that dan puched and looked back at him. "You. Fucking. Fag" Mateo said sternly and Punched dan really hard and the stomach, bringing him to his knees.
he was on the floor holding his stomach.
Mateo turned around getting ready to walk out.
Dan got up slowly and tackled Mateo to the ground, punching him repeatidly. 
Dan thought 'What the fucking fuck am i doing!!! this is not helping the situation!!! stop punching him torelli!" but before he could stop himself, Mateo pushed him off and took him by his shirt picking him up and pushing him against the wall.
He got really close to Dans face. "Dont you ever fu--" he couldnt finish because Dans lips pressed up against his.
Dan couldnt help it...he was so close and he looked so sexy when he was mad.
Mateos eyes shot open, but he didnt object to it.
moments later their tounges met each other.
Mateo pressed up against Dan and placed his hands on his hips.
Dan bit his lip and mid-kiss then continued to kiss him roughly.
Mateo slid one hand up his shirt, while the other one was still on his hip.
Dan couldnt believe what was happening....after years of friendship and fights.
they pulled away from each other for air.
then Dan pushed himself off the wall and pushed Mateo against it now.
He kissed and bit Mateos neck continuously while shoving his hand down his pants and rubbing his member.
Mateo let his head fall back and his eyes close.
Dan realized what he was doing and backed away.
they looked at each other
Dan had to think up something quick or else hes caught..


--------



[So uh...should i continue....i wrote like a paragraph after this but then i was like nahhhhhhhhhh. so comments, suggestions or anything would be great :] ]  
 

1. i really hate my science teacher cause hes depriving me of going to high school. if i pass then i can but sweetblackjesus his class is hard to pass.

2. i might get back into writing slash.
i used to do it a long time ago with Brendon/Ryan and Pete/Patrick
but im thinking of like Madina Lake pairings and Syn/Zacky
im afraid its gonna be all suckish and shit.
but oh well whats the harm in trying xD

its freaking sexy yo 
Ferard= swoonage
Madina Lake pairings= hxc swoonage
Syn and Zacky= THE FUCKING SEX
Peterick= i have no words to explain the sexyness of that situation





holy shit x]